Temptation and deliverance of evil.

I am not a guy who will say my thoughts. In reality anything I say on my blog is only a hint at what I think. I have this uncontrollable lack of trust. I don't trust anything I can't reason with logically. I trust God because it is logical not necessarily because I trust anything that has been taught to me through others. This lack of trust comes from a deep place and is well hidden but on odd days it comes flaring into reality and people don't understand why I do what it is I do. Which is what happened today I doubt anyone will understand that and I have to live with the repercussions of my "curse". It's sad but because I do not show that I do not trust has gifted me with the ability to show trust when it actually is not there. It is part of how I role. It's weird how God speaks to people. He speaks to them the way they need to hear it. In may case thought logic. Now I suspect that some of you wonder how does this have to do with temptation. Well its simple. God has removed it. He removes it in ways I can understand. Take the example of B and E I wouldn't consider myself by any means a pro at it but give me enough time and I can figure out a way into almost anywhere. Not always the obvious solution because I hate to rely on others due to a lack of trust but a solution non the less. Now we all know there are certain rules and that under normal circumstances stay out of locked doors is one of them. Well I was on my way to skirt around this problem when bam God blocks a door. Temptation starts slow and builds it starts with well I had good intentions but slowly moves to I can do this and no one knows till it escalates and things come crashing around you. I hate the way God works sometimes because it hurts it truly honestly hurts. A situation I am in I began to understand today as relieving me of temptation and delivering me from evil. I thought about it and I said God that sux and there must be ways around it. God said you know it'll stop when you learn your lesson. It was like God punished me and I was crying. But then you know how after you get the "belt" you sit there and cry after not because of the pain in your bottom but because you got punished you know why and you know you could have avoided it. And you thinks it's all unfair and that you should be given another chance. It's like God is saying look that was evil and you shouldn't have done it. If you're wise and or lucky you'll learn the lesson God is teaching and move on.

Shut your eyes and spin the picture. You'll feel dizzy light and free and falling gently on the cushion you can come and sing to me. When your worrying starts to hurt and the world feels like graves of dirt just close your eyes and turn. You can image this place you're our secret place as well.