Crazy mixed up world

Have you ever had someone who was like your best friend and you did a lot with and you let them into your life? You introduce them slowly and take them to all the important things to you? And sudenly those things become important to them. Your so happy for them and its like Sweet because you know you are friends and that things are good. Then Bam before you know it the winds of time catch the sail and takes that friendship away. Slowly but surely it leaves and you are in the water chasing after it because you thought it would last. But all those things that were so important to you are still important to them and you want to be happy for them because it is important to you and valuable and you know they will benifit from it. Only you have this feeling like now it's no longer sharing the things that were important to you. It's become a contest almost or a rip in your favorite shirt. You love that shirt but it's ruined and you need to get a knew one. But you just can bare to throw it out so it sits there on the shelf and you look at it all the time and you wear it every once in a while but just wish that it wasn't torn. Yet you know your wish is not coming true. You want to repair it in anyway possible but how do you. You don't want to make it worse. Eventually someone will throw it out for you and you will miss it. You can never get it back. You can buy a knew one and it will be great but it will never be the same. Never. Right now my life feels like a ripped shirt. Maybe God has put this all into place to guide me and I need to trust him but I am certainly going to miss the shirt not like I am going to throw it out and I am going to try keeping others from doing it. I dread that day. I have found a wonderful new shirt but it still saddens me and some days I fear that I might rip this one to and I just dont want that. I don't even know if I could deal with that.