Cumberland

It's the first day and I can tell there is something happening here. It's going to be good. I can tell that my issues are goign to be a burden on the team. I hope that I wont be affected by it because if I am not that will dampen the effect on the others. I am confused about this because I don't fell like I harbour any negative feelings towards this aspect and then all of the sudden there they are coming up to haunt me. I constantly feel this twinge of regret and when sometimes I am filled with a false sence of hope that is quickly shattered. That is when it affects me the most. that is when I get mad or frustrated. I want to just leave it up to God and I try to but there are days when I wonder if he'll make things right the way I see it. I get scared somedays because I don't know how I would handdle it. Yet it seems it's not the same as before because God has blessed me with two great Friends to help cope. Even if they don't know the situation I can ease myself this way. Funny how God knows to do these things because honestly if I didn't have them I wouldn't be here I would have lost all hope. Holy Is the Lord God almighty and the Earth is filled with his Glory.