Corupt and fraudulent fool

I've been had. I knew one day someone would figure me out. What I say to anyone is and always will be part of a game and manipulation of fact and yes that's right you the people. I am sure you knew so little that you just fell into my great awesomeness. I mean I have cred everywhere, that is everywhere where no one knows about what it is I do. Don't let my face fool you for one second. I in fact have been making a guise that would stand to the most brutal of testings. Any minute now the acupuncture will begin and the guise complete. You are and soon will find out a peon in my game of chess. You know... he's just on of those guys... that you move... to that space... to cover your queen. I hope you have fun taking the fall to save my queen.

Beauty of Life

I am am going to spin a tail for you. Jay had been bagging his sister for the past month to take him there. He had wanted to go so bad. Finally she caved and they started the day going to there aunt's for breakfast and quick visit. It would take a few hours to drive to the parking lot and from the parking lot it was still a 15 minute walk to the bridge. So they wanted to leave by 10. Luckily for them there aunt was a morning person and had breakfast ready at 8. So Jay had to groggily get his lazy butt out of bed at 6 just so that they could get there on time. Jay being from Saskatoon was amazed at the size of Vancouver. In Saskatoon he could probably drive anywhere in the city within a half hour to an hour. They were in the car on there way to the aunt's house by 6:30. They didn't arrive till 7:45 and there aunt's house was closer to the parking lot by an hour. They had a great meal with Bratswhirched a favourite dish for all the kids. After breakfast Jay asked his Uncle to show him a little on the Violin. They stayed for maybe an hour after breakfast and left by 9:30. There was a little discomfort in the car and Jay started to argue a little with his brothers. Something he when he was bored. It made him feel a little superior because he could easily out wit them. Aside from that he always felt inferior to them because Mike was the oldest son and getting married. He was going to be the first in the family and Dan well he was the youngest child so he was treated as the baby by everyone. To say the least everyone was happy to get out of the car when they finally got to the parking lot by 11:30. By the end of the 15 minute walk they had all forgotten what had taken place in the cart and were racing up and down the dirt paths to the bridge. On the bridge Jay and Mike just had to swing it. It's a just must on suspension bridges. Not to mention it freaks out girls especially sisters because they can yell and scream at you. On the other side of the bridge they were back to running up and down the paths they found some intriguing trees on had a bucket top and Jay was first to to climb the tree and get in the bucket was large enough for him to sit in and have only his shoulders up showing. Mike and Dan were next on the tree to join Jay and they took a picture. There was on tree had branches with green but the inside was hollow as if rotted out. the inside was large enough for two people to stand inside. Jay crept inside skeptical of the structural soundness of this hollow tree. Not to mention Jay did not like spiders at all and knew that there was bound to be huge webs in there. Upon entering Jay forgot all his worries of spiders and collapsing trees, his jaw just dropped. The inside was a green glow as the sun filtered into a hole through the top that was covered by green leaves. the sight was astounding. Jay stood there for a few minutes soaking in the beauty that God had created. He sighed. This beauty reminded him of someone he knew back home. Not that they knew it but he did and he put that image in the back of his mind as a treasured painting. He looked up and realised the rest were all ahead of him and he raced to catch up taking a quick short cut off the path something he liked to do because he could easily maneuver his way through the brush and it was more fun jumping over logs and balancing over creeks than sticking to the manned path. They soon got down to the rocky beach right near the falls. The water was beautiful here and they waded in it for a while soon they wanted to explore the other side of the river because they saw a path. So Jay along with Mike and Dan went and skirted the rock edges near the falls and found a nice little rock island. They found out it was a a dead end and went back they then saw a good place to try and wad to the other side and Jay went first he almost fell but found his ground and decided it was a too much risk to try there. Dan however figured he could go and not fall so he tried and as predicted by Jay fell Jay and Mike just laughed at him for a while. Eventually Jay went in to help him out and fell on his butt near the shore. It look like he wet himself. Mike decided he would try a different approach and went to the edge of this huge rock on the edge the slippery place and tried to see how deep it was. He had hope that he would wade out from there avoiding the incidents we had. But while looking over the edge he lost his sun glasses. And couldn't reach them from on top the rock so he too braved the algae cover span and did not avoid falling in although not to the extent of Dan be worse than Jay. In the end the three boys got wet they never reached the other side and Mike lost his sunglasses. They decided to pack up and leave because there were all a little hungry and the boys especially Dan were wet and cold. But they all agreed that it was a good day.

Temptation and deliverance of evil.

I am not a guy who will say my thoughts. In reality anything I say on my blog is only a hint at what I think. I have this uncontrollable lack of trust. I don't trust anything I can't reason with logically. I trust God because it is logical not necessarily because I trust anything that has been taught to me through others. This lack of trust comes from a deep place and is well hidden but on odd days it comes flaring into reality and people don't understand why I do what it is I do. Which is what happened today I doubt anyone will understand that and I have to live with the repercussions of my "curse". It's sad but because I do not show that I do not trust has gifted me with the ability to show trust when it actually is not there. It is part of how I role. It's weird how God speaks to people. He speaks to them the way they need to hear it. In may case thought logic. Now I suspect that some of you wonder how does this have to do with temptation. Well its simple. God has removed it. He removes it in ways I can understand. Take the example of B and E I wouldn't consider myself by any means a pro at it but give me enough time and I can figure out a way into almost anywhere. Not always the obvious solution because I hate to rely on others due to a lack of trust but a solution non the less. Now we all know there are certain rules and that under normal circumstances stay out of locked doors is one of them. Well I was on my way to skirt around this problem when bam God blocks a door. Temptation starts slow and builds it starts with well I had good intentions but slowly moves to I can do this and no one knows till it escalates and things come crashing around you. I hate the way God works sometimes because it hurts it truly honestly hurts. A situation I am in I began to understand today as relieving me of temptation and delivering me from evil. I thought about it and I said God that sux and there must be ways around it. God said you know it'll stop when you learn your lesson. It was like God punished me and I was crying. But then you know how after you get the "belt" you sit there and cry after not because of the pain in your bottom but because you got punished you know why and you know you could have avoided it. And you thinks it's all unfair and that you should be given another chance. It's like God is saying look that was evil and you shouldn't have done it. If you're wise and or lucky you'll learn the lesson God is teaching and move on.

Shut your eyes and spin the picture. You'll feel dizzy light and free and falling gently on the cushion you can come and sing to me. When your worrying starts to hurt and the world feels like graves of dirt just close your eyes and turn. You can image this place you're our secret place as well.