Lettin it out

As much as you want to disagree I want to be a good friend to you and I want to help you when you go thru shit. I would never intentionally act as an ass towards you. As you are well aware that being stubborn is a trait and maybe you don't know but I am not too fond of it. Being stubborn is maybe what kept me going on those stupid jokes that you don't like. That however does not mean I was being an ass Intentionally. You never told me why you don't like them and so I being stubborn kept at them not understanding. I can't even begin to explain how much you mean to me so I won't even try but if you meant anything to me as a friend then why would I want to jeopardize that. Now you may see this argument as the same as before and maybe it is but I didn't and don't know that. The other night when I said I gave up on you I was only saying that because you did and in a sense it is true. You see our last fight when we were finally ok well I wanted so much to pursue it further and find out what was underneath but in the end I figured it was still water and why stir it up so I gave up on knowing. I don't know maybe you can understand this next part because of Someone but it is so hard to be a good friend when the other tells you nothing to very little about what is going on. I was lucky that I had Someone Else there for so long to help me. But now I am drowning and you are staring at me hoping for a miracle when all it would take for one is you to extend your hand. I see you trying but your scared and I just want to scream and cry because I can't even tell you. The longer you hesitate the more agony I have to endure and soon I'll be lost to the depths of the ocean. Then it will take a wonder of God to bring me back. The wonder of God, I must admit, would be awesome but right now I would settle for a miracle.